BOBBY, THE GIRLS, AND ME

I had thought long and hard on the possibility that I have been mentally ill for most of my life, but enough sanity to manage myself.  I still cannot answer the most intriguing question of all, why was I obsessed with my childhood and these two girls.  It became so clear that I wanted to go back to nurture myself and get Bob to sever his obsessions  with the spirit world.  I am convinced that he (I) was indeed gifted in a strange sort of way and seemed to attract spirits of a certain persuasion.  I am also convinced that the two girls were also infected with this spiritual "disease".  They both radiated things not in the norm for children.  In fact, the little girl next door to my grandmother's house who watched me undress on that night in 1953 might have also been a member of this clan of spirits.  I was determined to see both of them again, and I could because it was 1952  and both of them were still young and untouched by the poisons of therapy.  I could find and see both of them in my 73 year old body and talk to them without them knowing who I was.  I would talk to them, ask if they knew Bobby Fishback, ask what they thought of him, and tell them I was Bobby's Grandfather if necessery to do so, as they might ask how I knew of Bobby. I decided to go to the Glendale Unified School District  and volunteer my time as a crossing guard for both Clark Jr Hi.  and Toll Jr. High.  I would have to fullfil my fantisies with one of them at a time and try to get them interested in seeing Bobby again.  Jeanette had the most power of the two and I actually feared the idea.  Bonnie would be more relaxed.  Now, the trick was to introduce this idea to Bob and have a good answer to his anticipated question as to how I knew of them. This is going to be tricky, but it really ran my motor.  (to be continued)