Sunday, September 16, 2012
WOOING SESSION ONE CONTINUED
I felt it time to start edging into an area that pertained to who I really was without spilling the beans. Bob needed to talk about alot of things that he kept hidden and if I let him know he was not alone in certain matters, it might disarm him. Before I started on this track, I excused myself and went in the house and fixed a double scotch and soda and gulped it right down. When I returned, I asked Bob if he liked me. He replied: "Yes, very much, you are different..like a boy in a man's body....I liked it when you bought a model plane and motor." I asked: "Do you think I have made and do make many mistakes?" This seemed to puzzle him as he was quiet for a little time. Then he said: "I think adults are always right....they act that way...they seem to have arrived somewhere ...a place where I am not." I wanted to work myself into a place where he could feel like a counsellor to me and so I said: "Bob, you are the only person I can trust....please don't tell your parents this..."When I was a little boy, I used to steal alot of things. The first thing I ever stole was a kerosene lantern off of a construction site. As a teen like you, I was a little thief...I stole Brody Knobs to put on my bicycle, I even stole a pretty glass vase and gave it to my Mother for Christmas. I used to siphon gasolene for my car....I even siphoned gas from a fellow student's car in the school parking lot. I felt so ...dirty and ashamed until I realized some things. I was a human being and humans can do the strangest things. I now realize that it was not something for free that I was looking for. I was looking to express what I felt about things....it was beating the system...it was a laughing at something..a thumbing of the nose at a world of only right adults and all of their laws. As I grew and matured, I realized all of this and realized that in times of turmoil run through immaturity...it was using the wrong machine to accomplish a task....like putting bread into a washing machine to toast it. I am now sorry in a way, but I understand and foregive myself....realizing that all adults are are older and more sophisticated little boys and girls." Bob was really absorbing all of this and I sensed he was having a mental and emotional earthquake where the tectonic plates of exhistance were moving around to relieve the stress. He suddenly opened up " I steal too, it is fun to see if I can fool the adults..just like you. I steal all the time." he said. I thought this was a huge step foreward and instead of saying you must stop this, I extended my hand and said "I will shake on that" He not only shook my hand, he hugged me tight and...sobbed. (to be continued)
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